Category Archives: Suffering

Begging God

I have begged God so many times for deliverance and was denied. But I found that it was in the denial of those very things that I had begged for, that brought me closest to Him.

What if the Worst Happens?

Replacing “what if” with “even if” is one of the most liberating exchanges I have ever made. I’ve seen that even if the worst happens, God will carry me.

Where is God in the Dark?

Our lowest emotional points bring our most significant growth, our greatest dependence on God and our platform for ministry. It is in these low points that God does His deepest work in us…

The Best Way to Discourage a Suffering Friend

It’s so easy to discourage our friends who are suffering, by comparing them to others, minimizing their struggles, offering unasked for advice. Here’s what NOT to do…

When Waiting Hurts

I went through a period of agonizing waiting, looking for signs of whether God would give me what I prayed for. Though the wait felt excruciating, God had changed me in the process.

Good Friday: When All Hope Feels Lost

In a dark period in my life, a friend encouraged me by telling me how hopeless the disciples and Mary must have felt on Good Friday. But they didn’t know one important thing…

Scarred

I was bullied as a child and never told anyone. I buried my feelings deep and didn’t know how much that impacted me until God showed me the truth about who I am.

This is What it Means to be Held

Natalie Grant’s hit song Held was written by my friend Christa Wells, and the first verse was inspired by my son Paul who died at two months old.

Why Doesn’t God Heal Everyone?

I left a healing service unchanged. The pastor said my faith was too weak. But in the not being healed, the crying out to God, the trusting him when it hurts, I have seen God most clearly.

Has God Forgotten to be Gracious?

When I am most discouraged, I need to look back over my life and remember God’s faithfulness to me. And as I do, I am often stunned to see all God has done in my deepest suffering.

There are more important things in life than walking

I had dinner with Joni Eareckson Tada and was struck with the beauty of her words and her life. She has taught me that surrender is an act of worship.

Talking Myself through Suffering

With post-polio, my strength is deteriorating rapidly. In my pain, I need to remind myself of seven things that put my trials in perspective…

Finding Joy in the midst of Suffering

I am convinced that our capacity for God, and for true joy, is carved out of our suffering. It is out of that chasm, that emptiness, that God alone can fill us. With Himself. With His joy…

Never give up hope

I pull into the driveway, and I’m undone at seeing my camellia bush. This resurrected shrub has weathered many storms and has taught that God is always working, especially when we can’t see it.