The Power of the Word

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Some days I wake up crying.

And when I do, I often don’t even know why. Perhaps it is the weight of unspoken problems that I’m too afraid to articulate. Coupled with a vague dread of what might come next.

Yesterday was one of those days. The day before, my arm had felt useless. I couldn’t drink my coffee. I couldn’t write. I couldn’t do what I wanted. I felt trapped inside my body which has become an all-too-familiar feeling. At times, it almost feels like a living death.

So, as I lie in bed, contemplating what the day might hold, I feel tears welling up inside me.

Stop, don’t do this,” I tell myself. But I can’t force the tears to stop and they start trickling down my face. Before long, my pillow is soaked and I feel hopeless.

“You’re a failure. You’re a burden. You can’t do anything for yourself,” are the ugly voices I keep hearing until I force myself out of bed.

I pull my robe on slowly and stumble into my prayer closet. I need this. This is my food for the day.

“Please God, help me. Show me truth,” is my only cry. I cannot muster anything more. Then I open the Bible and start reading.

Without this Word, I would start interpreting life on my own. By my experiences. My feelings. My finite perspective.

I know that this is the only place to find truth. If I judge life by my despair, my pain, my circumstances, I will always live life skewed. I will judge everything by what I see. But life is so much more than what I can see. There is a Reality that goes far beyond my experience.

And that reality is God. He is in me and with me and for me. The truth is, I have died and my life is hidden with Christ in God.

As I turn the pages of Scripture to the first reading for the day, I marvel. Yet I’m not surprised. God meets me through his Word. Without fail.

Sometimes it requires perseverance to understand what I’m reading, like digging for diamonds. And other times, like today, the Lord feeds me directly from his hand.

I read Psalm 56. “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid. What can flesh do to me?”

That’s what I need to do. Put my trust in God. He alone can drive out all my fears.

“You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle.”

God knows my sleepless nights. All the tears I have cried. All my fears, spoken and unspoken. It’s all laid bare before him.

And these words, these words take my breath away. “This I know, that God is for me.”

God is for me.

Even when life looks like it’s splintering, God is for me. And if God is for me, he is orchestrating everything in my life for my good. I can trust him even when everything looks dark. He tells me not to be afraid. Man cannot do anything to me.

God is for me. These words keep echoing through my mind.

“For you have delivered my soul from death, yes, my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of life.”

What a fitting end to the Psalm. He indeed has delivered my soul from death. He keeps my feet from stumbling. He empowers me to walk before him in his light.

My eyes tear up for the second time this morning. But these are tears of joy. And hope.

This is the true reality. This Word, penned thousands of years ago, is poured out for me. Today.

I smooth out the pages with my hands and I almost hug the Bible. This Word has become life to me. It sustains me. It revives me. It comforts me.

I want to take the words, to eat them, to digest them and let them nourish me. They indeed bring light to my eyes. My whole view of the world, my life, my struggles are all changed in the light of Scripture. And in that light, my dark shadows disappear.

If I judge my life merely by what’s happening around me, I will miss something far deeper. Something much more profound and true. This life is not about me. It’s about God.

And with God there is always hope. He is for me. I can trust him. My circumstances will change but he never will.

As I leave my prayer closet, I am grateful for how much my perspective has changed. My circumstances are no different from when I entered, yet everything has been strangely transformed.

All because I met with God.

I can trust God with my weakness, with my fears, with my pain. Because God is for me. And with that knowledge, I can face the day. With that knowledge, I can face anything.

 

 

  • January 19, 2017 - 5:11 pm

    Kola Bowden - Thank you so much for being so raw about your real struggles. You have become such a humble role model that I need in my life. God is using you. Sister in Christ ~ kola sueReplyCancel

    • January 20, 2017 - 9:51 am

      Vaneetha - Thank you for your kind words, Kola Sue. I am so grateful the Lord is using this post.ReplyCancel

  • January 19, 2017 - 7:05 pm

    Kristi - Thank you for this!!!ReplyCancel

    • January 20, 2017 - 9:50 am

      Vaneetha - You’re welcome, Kristi. Thankful the Lord used it.ReplyCancel

  • January 20, 2017 - 8:56 am

    Michelle - Yes! As I waited these last two days for my CT scan results, I kept returning to His truth. It is a balm for my weary soul. Psalm 56 in particular. My heart could thank Him even before the results were back. The report this time was good. My cancer has not advanced any further. Thank you for allowing us to walk this road together.ReplyCancel

    • January 20, 2017 - 9:49 am

      Vaneetha - Thankful for good CT scan results and even more thankful that God walks with us through everything.ReplyCancel

  • January 20, 2017 - 8:59 am

    Erin Bergen - Thank you many times over for sharing your real and honest thoughts. God is working on all things and the timing of this post in my life is one of those things
    Thank youReplyCancel

    • January 20, 2017 - 9:50 am

      Vaneetha - So glad God used this post, Erin. He is indeed working on all things.ReplyCancel

  • January 20, 2017 - 4:43 pm

    Linda Swanekamp - Your words, if taken to heart and mind, about the Word would transform so many people’s suffering and attitudes. When we don’t take the time and attention to the life given in the Bible, we are hopeless and defeated. I have been to the end of my rope in suffering at times and it is only the grace and mercy I find in who God is as revealed in Scripture that has kept my head above the waters. I am sorry for all the suffering you endure, but praising God that He has shown you He is enough for no matter what.ReplyCancel

    • January 20, 2017 - 7:25 pm

      Vaneetha - I too am praising God that He is ever-sufficient!ReplyCancel

  • January 21, 2017 - 7:18 pm

    Jacks - I get frustrated with myself that I don’t use my limited energy for most important things always. Thank you for such an honest shove in the right direction… Godly direction.ReplyCancel

    • January 24, 2017 - 5:56 pm

      Vaneetha - So glad this was helpful. I need that shove too oftentimes!ReplyCancel

  • January 24, 2017 - 7:23 am

    Barb - Thank you so very much vaneetha for being an open book. I am hanging on by a thread to my Jesus and he is using your writings, life, transparency to reveal himself and his ways to me. Thank you my sister.ReplyCancel

    • January 24, 2017 - 5:55 pm

      Vaneetha - Oh Barb- I’m sorry things are so hard but grateful you are finding God in the midst of it all…ReplyCancel

  • January 29, 2017 - 4:53 pm

    Sheila - “I want to take the words, to eat them, to digest them and let them nourish me. They indeed bring light to my eyes. My whole view of the world, my life, my struggles are all changed in the light of Scripture. And in that light, my dark shadows disappear.”

    I love this! So true. When I hear God’s word preached, or sit to read it myself, my view of life is changed. Sometimes I walk away thinking how strange and wonderful what God’s word does to me! What a treasure to be fed by God, to see life for what it really is!ReplyCancel

    • January 29, 2017 - 8:43 pm

      Vaneetha - I completely agree, Sheila. Its amazing how God’s Word can change us!ReplyCancel

  • February 3, 2017 - 6:30 pm

    Juliemoemoe - Vaneetha I’m from the Philippines. I just want to thank you for your faith as it is literally travelling through continents! And such is the mighty power of God!! Your messge resonates. Channeling God’s love to me❤️ReplyCancel

    • February 3, 2017 - 7:44 pm

      Vaneetha - So thankful God is using this. Thanks for writing, Julie.ReplyCancel

  • February 16, 2017 - 9:51 am

    Nilanjana - So wonderful and encouraging to read and know that Jesus is preparing for things greater, through your writings and God’s word! God bless you and strengthen you. I have experienced His peace through disappointments. Three miscarriages in two years and I am afraid to hope.I accepted what God allowed to happen. I am content in His love. Thanks for your encouragement ….times when we feel like crying.ReplyCancel

    • February 16, 2017 - 10:46 am

      Vaneetha - I’m so sorry for your losses, but encouraged that you have experienced peace through disappointments. Praying know that God will continue to comfort you as you hope in Him.ReplyCancel

  • February 20, 2017 - 4:17 am

    Julie - The same verses have spoken so much to me! Thank you!ReplyCancel

    • February 20, 2017 - 10:22 am

      Vaneetha - That is a wonderful passage, isn’t it? It continues to provide me both courage and encouragement as I look to the Lord.ReplyCancel

  • March 17, 2017 - 8:56 am

    Sonya Joubert - Thank you Vaneetha for your honesty. I woke up crying this morning too because I spent the month of February watching my daughter Kathy, 42 dying of inoperable brain cancer every day. My family has been split in half emotionally and although Kathy is in the best place with Jesus we are facing many losses and it is hard. I was in the Slough of Despond when I read your first article on Lonliness in grief and you helped pull me out and focus on God. I read your story and some of your articles and I resonate with everything you write. I am so glad that I have found you because you pulled me out of the Slough again today and focused my mind on the straight road. God strengthen you and never stop speaking to you. I memorize Scripture by putting tunes to them and singing them and this Psalm is one of them. Praise God He is alive.ReplyCancel

    • March 17, 2017 - 11:59 am

      Vaneetha - I am so sorry, Sonya. I can only imagine how hard February was watching your daughter go through all that pain. I am thankful that she is with Jesus now, but I know being the one left behind on earth is incredibly hard. Praying for you as I write this that God will comfort and strengthen you today, and as you said, “never stop speaking to you” through his still small voice and through prayer.ReplyCancel

  • April 17, 2017 - 10:22 pm

    Julie - Oh these sweet words have been an encouragement to me. Thank you for this idea to start each day in a prayer closet. I found out last week my 19m old daughter has a tumor on her kidney. We are waiting and dealing with scheduling issues to get her the needed MRIs to confirm a diagnosis and check for other tumors. I’m going to psalm 56 right now. Thank you for your encouragement!! I’ve been in shock for the last few days. I also loved the “do the next thing” post. Great practical advice for days of confusion when darkness trys to creep in. God bless!ReplyCancel

    • April 18, 2017 - 6:19 pm

      Vaneetha - I’m so sorry about your daughter’s tumor, Julie. Waiting is one of the hardest things I know. Praying as I write this that you will experience God’s extravagant love and comfort as you wait for the results. And praying that the tumor is benign and there are no others.ReplyCancel

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